The Misadventures of Sibeh Sian

You can call me Sian. Sibeh Sian.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

The long and short about The Love Letter

Hi all :(

As some of you have correctly pointed out, I am feeling sad over the letter . Even though I have no romantic feelings towards Office Bimbo, I was genuinely thrilled at the thought of someone having a crush on me. This is because it was always the other way round all my life. I thought there was finally someone who can see beyond my fugly façade.


I am feeling so bad, I might as well let it all out and tell you guys about a very shameful thing I did when I was a teenager.

It was my second year in secondary school, and as with any normal hormone-raging teen, everyone was falling in and out of crushes like nobody’s business. Some of my classmates were quite hunky, and it was common for them to receive cards from their many female (and a few male) admirers on their birthdays. They will then show the cards to everyone to yaya-papaya.

I had no such luck. In fact, a few classmates even wrote stuff like “Sibeh Sian is sibeh sissy” in my year book when I passed it around. Yes, I was not a very happy kid in secondary school.

So anyway, I have no idea why, but I desperately wished that someone will send me a birthday card that year. Maybe it was because I wanted to yaya-papaya too. But I know the chance of me actually getting a card is next to zero.

So I decided to write one to myself.

Here’s the letter reproduced in its (near) entirety:

“Dearest Sibeh Sian,

Happy birthday :)!

I hesitated for a long, long time before I finally found the courage to send this to you. You may not know who I am, but I always look at you when you think I was not looking at you. I found myself thinking about you a lot even when I am at home and when I sleep. I think you are a very good boy. I think I like you.

Happy birthday :)!

With Love,
Secret Admirer”

Yes, I was shamelessly desperate, because I desperately wanted to feel wanted. So I placed the letter in a pink envelope (this must be retribution), and sent it a few days before my birthday. I was so happy when I received the letter in the letter box, and happily brought it to school to show off to my friends.

Everything would have gone according to plan if not for the fact they recognized the handwriting as mine.

There is no cure for stupidity :(

With Love,
Sibeh Sian

P. S. When my mum reached home last night, she bought some traditional Chinese herbal tea for me. She said now that I have a girlfriend, I must have more energy. I was so ashamed I locked myself up in my room and cried.


  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 11:46:00 AM, Blogger tstar said…

    Just tell your mom no more girl liao lorz, if not waste money buy herbal tea lehz.

    Aiyo, don't be so sad, the right girl with pinchable cheeks is out there! Maybe eating KFC right now sia. =)

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 12:01:00 PM, Blogger yanZzz said…

    as a loyal READER of urs ..
    in return ..
    u can tell me when is ur bday !!
    DUN have to give me ur resident address (i dun wann it )
    just give me ur email address will do ..
    i will send u a bday card ..
    and write some message which are untrue as to let u have a better bday celebration ..
    how abt it ???

    nice enough to u le ba ~~

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 12:06:00 PM, Blogger The Rational Neurotic said…

    harlows.. don't sad la. You can always date me and we can go eat KFC together! Haha =))

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 12:13:00 PM, Blogger angeldevil4 said…

    Yeah.. KFC solves all problems and dispersed all saddness.. Cheers! let's go KFC together on your birthday ok?

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 12:29:00 PM, Blogger Hyoga said…

    Actually, u ought to drink more herbal tea when u do NOT have a gf. no gf = super heaty. /grin

    btw seriously if the story about your secondary school days is true, u really zomfg self-owned.
    i would hang myself if i were u.
    QQ more.

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 12:46:00 PM, Blogger Jj said…

    tell us your birthday, sian!!

    i believe most of us will wish you "happy birthday" one, since you seemed to be so deprived of one! hehs.

    i feel sad for you, sia. ='(

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 1:30:00 PM, Blogger Fr0g^___^ said…

    tell me ur BD!

    & I will send "MYSELF" to u!!

    cheeky grin...

    Stalker Fr0g^__^

    (p.s its part of the growing up for falling OUT of love.. so dun be SAD for too long! life still goes on without any r/s, family love is most important)

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 1:37:00 PM, Blogger Sunflower said…

    No wonder you grow up like tat!

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 2:05:00 PM, Blogger pj said…


    look at it this way:-

    what value does a girlfriend bring to ur life?

    for company, u have friends.
    for money, umm i think u'd be spending more money.
    for love, well, ur mom loves u and i'm positive u love her too.
    for what then?

    just a thought. ;)

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 2:18:00 PM, Blogger Disabled Lot said…

    Brudder, nevermind lah.

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 3:27:00 PM, Blogger bochup said…

    wah hope you didn't waste the traditional Chinese herbal tea. anyways, why cry... I think you should have invited Nerd over to share the tea, get some tips from him and plot a strategy on how to attract your dream girl.

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 4:07:00 PM, Blogger Adrenaline said…

    Okay, it's prata time.

    call me.

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 6:49:00 PM, Blogger freakkler said…

    is your favourite food KFC or prata then? :p Huh.. .

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 9:17:00 PM, Blogger antisocialfreak said…

    Hey don't be sad lah... cheer up, ok?

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 9:26:00 PM, Blogger eileen` said…

    cheer up! i believe somewhere out there, there will be a girl who shops at this fashion, loves KFC, and has chubby cheeks. =)

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 9:34:00 PM, Blogger God's children said…

    'I have been reading your rubbish for a very long time'..?

    *lubs chin*

    I think so too you know... I have this intense little feeeling that you had another blog before SibehSian.

    In the name of KFC and Office Bimbo, CONFESS!

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 9:40:00 PM, Blogger miss jurisfiction said…

    It was your birthday?

    You are a Virgo too!

    Anyway, does OB know of this blog?

  • At Tuesday, September 19, 2006 11:05:00 PM, Blogger Ting-a-ling-ling said…

    don't cry la. im sure one day there'll be a girl who likes u and treats u genuinely. "every one of us in this world is made for someone."

  • At Wednesday, September 20, 2006 12:19:00 AM, Blogger mrdes said…

    Sian, time for some KFC, make office bimbo pay, er, somehow..haha

  • At Wednesday, September 20, 2006 12:29:00 AM, Blogger Razzle Dazzled said…

    don't be sad lah, Sian.

    one day, you'll find your other half. till then, be happy!

  • At Wednesday, September 20, 2006 9:43:00 AM, Blogger lambchop said…

    sian, you know i love youuuuu.... <3 <3 <3

  • At Wednesday, September 20, 2006 9:50:00 AM, Blogger Green Ogre said…

    Well, I hate to say this but you could always buy a bride. Or you could try dating some of your devoted fans who've professed their love for you. Grins.

    Sorry, very hard for me to feel sympathy fater you pulled such a loser stunt like that. Must have copied it from Mr. Bean.

    I think the right message to be sent to people is "Don't expect others to love and respect you, when you can't love and respect yourself."

    So pull your socks up, and get it to together. Keep your chin up and tell yourself other uglier, stupider people have managed to get themselves attached (without surgical means).

    Come on lah, You're better than that.

  • At Wednesday, September 20, 2006 10:27:00 AM, Blogger sÞ¡ηηєє said…


    i've been reading and wanting to suan you but kns i can't comment due to the beta thing.

    NOW CAN LIAO yahoo!!!

    anyway go eat kfc (where's my coupons!@!!!!) , u'll feel betta :)

  • At Wednesday, September 20, 2006 12:44:00 PM, Blogger Winter_Cherrie said… take care !

    i also last time sec school ,kena before.Some ah lians played tricks on me. They knew i like a guy in my school and using his name and they wrote one letter and put in on my table ...

    it says: I want to know you more.Will you except my love?.Meet me later after school at 5pm...i waited and waited at the back of my shoulders i can hear some ppl giggling...

    i should have known its the ah lians, just look at their msg so many error...

    sigh..we all nerds have this one common teenage problem...always bullied :'(

  • At Wednesday, September 20, 2006 1:53:00 PM, Blogger Christel said…

    For someone who calls herself a lady of 'high standards' generally got NOTHING TO OFFER... but LOTS TO DEMAND!

    Just be a dear and encourage her to 'keep trying' and 'look further'... while you thank your lucky stars she ain't into you!

  • At Wednesday, September 20, 2006 5:58:00 PM, Blogger SeaLs said…

    Dear Sibeh Sian

    Why now got gf need more energy ah? *LOL

    That's darn funny, i thought!

  • At Wednesday, September 20, 2006 7:34:00 PM, Blogger alien73 said…

    Sian, look on the bright side. Her high and mighty attitude wouldn't suit you anyway. Irks.
    Plenty of girls on our island. Take your time to pick a suitable one. Don't feel sad OK?

  • At Thursday, September 21, 2006 9:14:00 AM, Blogger Sibeh Sian said…

    To all: Thank you so much for the kind words of encouragement! Sibeh Sian is sibeh touched, and I will try my best to strive for happiness, prosperity and progress in my life. Have been very busy at work, will reply your comments and pay a visit to your blogs soon :)

  • At Thursday, September 21, 2006 6:24:00 PM, Blogger Sibeh Sian said…

    Tstar: It will be such a lovely sight, seeing a girl with a ponytail, munching KFC in her lovely pinchable cheeks. Sigh :(

    Yanzzz: Haha, you very nice leh you :) I'm born on the 31st of September :)

    Rational Neurotic: My mum say cannot go out with people you meet on the net one, because they might molest you! I'm still a virgin, if you must know :)

    Angeldevil4: In fact, I do intend to dine at KFC on the big day. 3 piece meal with cheese fries and large iced tea, shiok :D!

    Hyoga: It's really true! I was sibeh embarrassed :(

    JJ: I felt sad for myself too, then I felt better when I read all your comments :) So sweet wor :D!

    Frog: You sound so sensible in the last paragraph wor :D! Good girl, haha :)

  • At Thursday, September 21, 2006 6:25:00 PM, Blogger Sibeh Sian said…

    Sunflower: I have even more traumatic childhood experience to share :(!

    PJ: The answer to your question is a three-letter word that begins with a 'S' and ends with a 'X'. With an 'E' in between :)

    Disabled Lot: *Hi 5 brudder* Haha, I don't want to 'nevermind' also cannot. Heh.

    Grace: Nice idea! It's high time I meet him for dinner again. That is, if he will spare me time from him girlfriend :(

    Adrenaline: If 4:07:23pm is prata time, then what time is it now :)?

    Freakkler: Actually, neither. My fav is my mum's 'pork chops' :)

    ASF: Haha, cheered up le :)! I pick up very fast one :)

    Eileen: Thanks! I hope I can meet her soon :)!

    Lakeside Girl: Heh ;)

  • At Thursday, September 21, 2006 6:28:00 PM, Blogger Sibeh Sian said…

    MissJ: Haha, actually my birthday haven't pass yet :) And no, Office Bimbo does not know of this blog. Heaven forbids :P!

    TLL: I just hope I'm not the suay suay one who got left out :(

    Mrdes: Haha, she won't return me the cab fare, so no point making her pay back lah, haha :)....

    Razzle Dazzled: The KFC last night cheered me up real good :)!

    Lambchop: Haha, so when are we gonna have babies :)?

    Green Ogre: I don't want to 'buy' a bride leh. Every time I read those horror stories on Sin Min till I scared already :P

    Spinnee: YES :D!!!! Haha, will try leaving one on your blog later :)

    Yanni: The ah lians are so evil!!!! Yah lor, getting bullied very poor thing one :(....

    Christel: Haha, I don't even dare to look at her that day in the office! Lucky she on holiday now sia. Sibeh awkward :P!

    Seals: Eh... eh... haha, cannot say lah :)

    Aileen: Thanks thanks :)! Hope I will find my KFC Eating Girl soon :)

  • At Friday, September 22, 2006 9:29:00 AM, Blogger yanZzz said…

    sure .. i will take note of
    31 SEPT if THERE is THIS DAY !!


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